Tsunami toll rises to 1,16,000. This is UNimaginable and unprecedented! So unbelievably shocking!

Chandragupta's friend Atul Dighe was at Vivekanand Rock Memorial in Kanya Kumari when the Tsunami struck Indian coast. Thankfully the statue sheltered everybody.

Fatigue taking it's toll

Now that it has become a habit to miss the company bus and go to Suwon by train later, I felt no qualms doing that today. What surprised me was that, as the train pulled into Suwon station, I had to make an effort to get up from my seat and head out. Later in the day at some point, a thought crossed my mind, "I can't do this task any further". I have never said this to myself in several months. Exhaustion is now slowly taking it's toll on me.

Yesterday I reached home after 2 a.m. Productivity hasn't been good for the past two days. Often in the last two weeks, I have counted how many more days to go, here in Korea. I see many of my colleagues frequently counting down days, but I never do that, because impatience breeds on itself. So, I was surprised at what I was thinking.

Next ten days are going to be crucial. And it's going to get worse before it gets better. In past, I have taken wrong actions under stress and exhaution. I realise that I need to stay calm at this point of time. I am not the only one under duress. Everyone is under pressure to deliver. Others would be reacting to my actions under stress of their own. So I need to be extra careful. I need to understand my own state of mind as well as that of others. I am supposed to be good at staying calm under pressure. This would be yet another test for me.

What's killing me is lack of diversion. I haven't opened a book in last three weeks! May be I should try to find some time to read even in these busy days. It may help relax my mind.

One reason why Swami Vivekanand's writings has such a tremendous influence on my thoughts and my actions is that again and again I find that I am never in a situation where I do not have his suggestions to guide me. As I think about my present difficulties, I am reminded of what I read last week - "Best work is only done by alternate repose and work". Keeping this in mind would help.