Studying

I took the first two papers of CPIM on Saturday. When I started preparing for the exam more than a month ago, I was extremely excited. I was studying for an exam after a long time and it was going to be fun. The course content itself was interesting. However as my study progressed, I began to get bored of it. It was the laziness of using my brain that was the cause of boredom. I was just reading the text like a novel. And soon it became a boring ordeal. I endured it till the day of the exam. The biggest surprise came on the day of the exam. If studying had been difficult, writing the exam was even tougher (and not knowing the answers was only a part of the reason). Just sitting there for three hours and thinking was difficult! I wanted to stop writing, give my answer paper and go out. Of course, I pushed myself to do a fair job of it. (A few times I rested my head on the desk and took short breaks). All in all, the whole episode left a bad taste in my mouth. I had heard people say that it is difficult to study with concentration once one is out of formal educational. And I always belived that that would never ever happen to me. So I am surprised at this. I need to take corrective action. I can't let this happen to me!