I want to reach a stage where I can think about my work just the way I think about having a vacation - no worries, no stress, no negative feelings. But I am far from that state. The moment I think about work, I feel an undercurrent of stress or tension. Only a firm conviction that I have done my best will enable me to reach that state. I must be convinced that I have not made any mistake, that I have never shown lack of commitment, that I have never violated my rules. Only then can I have peace of mind with regards to work.