The lost inspiration

Where is the belief that made me wise?
Where is the inspiration that made me rise?
Where is the belief that defied the reality?
Where is the inspiration that delivered victory?

Where is the belief that made pain bearable at least?
Where is the inspiration that killed the beast?
Where is the belief that made this life worth the fight?
Where is the inspiration that made each dark day bright?

"Child, I led you this far. Now you go alone", are these words real?
Oh God! Say that not to me for I am still not able
How do I lead myself to inspiration?
When lost is the desire for salvation

Depressing days

My last 2 months here in US have been so depressing. I had thought that my confined state, on account of not having a car, was causing me to be depressed, and that once I get a car, I will start feeling better. However that has not happened. Although the car has made life easier, it hasn't alleviated the general gloom that I am experiencing. I am feeling home-sick. I wish I were in India. Much of what I feel is because of the situation at work than anything else. I must bear this situation for many more months. The weather in Seattle doesn't help make things better either. (Seattle has the highest rate of depression and suicides in US, and it is largely attributed to its perennially overcast weather). I pray to God to give me patience and strenght to go through this depressing days.